in her own world. I kept calling her, like Mom, Mom, Mom. Nothing, though. I yanked her arm, but she barely moved. I started to panic, thinking I’d better go get my dad, but decided against it. I slapped her knee as hard as I could, crying like crazy. Going Mom, Mom. But that didn’t do anything, either. It was like she couldn’t even hear me. I was so scared, thinking what I’d do if she lost her mind and never said anything ever again. That was about the time that everyone in class was doing sun dares. Did you do those? Know how if you stare at the sun, you go blind? Someone decided that if you stare straight at the sun for thirty seconds without blinking, you get to make a wish. So I did it right there, sitting next to my mom, crying. Give me my mom back. I was looking straight up, right at the sun, my eyes all the way open. It was a really sunny day, too. Not a single cloud up there. The sun was really bright, white hot, like today. I still remember how painful it was to keep looking. But I kept telling myself, I can lose my sight, but I can’t lose my mom. I had no idea how long thirty seconds was, but I held it. I could feel my eyelids shaking, and tears were pouring out of my eyes. I fought with everything I had to keep them open. I had been at it for a really long time when I heard my mom say, ‘It wasn’t supposed to be like this.’ Actually, I didn’t really hear her words, but I was so relieved to hear her speak. Then she said it again, ‘It wasn’t supposed to be like this.’ I didn’t know what to say back, so I just kept quiet. She was like, ‘We have nothing . . . nothing.’ But she wasn’t talking to me. It was like the words were just coming up, from some place deep inside her, on their own.”