Almost Love

Loving someone only gave them the opportunity to break your heart.

I thought of all the things I let him do to me.

And he still didn’t love me.

‘You’re always sorry,’ she said. ‘And yet nothing ever changes.’

‘Too soon? Do you really want to be with a guy who doesn’t respect you because you slept with him “too soon”?’

She will never recover from that. She will be selfish and stupid and she will make bad choices. She will let men take her body and use it as they please. She will roll her eyes and say she doesn’t care, but she does care. She does. She will lose him. She will realise that he was never hers to lose in the first place.

I wished someone would tell me exactly what was wrong with me so that I could fix it.

Some secrets are meant to be kept, in case people use them against you, she thought.

She hadn’t realised how heavy the weight of her shame had been, and how tired she had become of carrying it.

When teenage girls loved something, they loved it fiercely and without shame, unburdened by the same desire to be ‘cool’

Maybe if she pretended to be a good girlfriend, it might come true.