But quickly, firmly, I refused, more firmly than I had ever spoken to him.
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Lilith Fidel,” he says softly.
In the depths of my stomach, there is an old high-school sensation of having been caught doing something wrong, found in a place I shouldn’t be.
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this was our shtick: tease; goad; challenge; coax; confess. Know when to pull apart or shore up. Do both with honesty.
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She is all blondeness and brightness, with eyes that see everything. But in this first instance, she is not what I am seeing at all. Not at all. As the child turns her face towards me, in a flash, all I can see is Dylan.
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There are the first signs of tracks around his eyes, where he has laughed, or cried,
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Now I looked at him. This is why I’d wanted to tell him. For him to make it light-licked, and not seeped in darkness.
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floated from the debate team to the entrepreneurs’ club, to badminton squad, and to the group of stand-arounds
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, the raw edge of his emerging masculinity.
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crowd-pleasing vulnerability,
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But apparently it was only brave when a boy showed feeling.